Resolution List 2009

Resolution List '09

1. Be optimistic.Never let negative thoughts unsurped its role in controlling my whole being.Achieve inner peace by thinking positive.Re-negates the intended evil thoughts that pull me down,so it would be positive.Always sees things in a good way. =)
2. MOtivAte mySeLf from time to time (even if it requires evil deeds or selfishness to do so).Compare myself with others as please academically,and i (others too) will be pleased to see the wealth of my triumphs and strength in persevering.Get motivated =).Compare myself with Manmeet,striving thru in medical studies in a cold merciless environment of Russia.Compare myself with Audrey,Updesh,Cabriz,my cousin sis,Timothy & so on.Compare urself to some idiots who got into those courses tht they dont even deserve to.Compare and feel enlightened.
3. Less serious lah...erm...be happy no matter wat.similar to no.1.sorta.
4. Tone body,LOSE BABY FAT.Be more handsome,=)
5. Be cheerful...dun easily succumb to depression.My life is too glam to stressed for.
6. Love people who deserved my love.
7. Be less mean to ppl.Less evil.At least i shud hide my villainy.Dont let my demon come out to play tht often. =D

Tommorow,which is the new year eve....will be the last day of my teen age.Sigh.Im aging.Yet i feel so childish.

ange ou demon

angel: u stupiddddd bad boy.....go those kinda clubs....clubbing clubbing clubbing,drink multiple glasses of liqour summore har....smoke summore,wan die arrrrrr.Stupid mund.Ethereal konon.Filial son ,ish...

demon: come on,chill lah.let go all of ur pressure....ease ur burden...be freeeeeee....freeeee....u met alot of cute ones dont u? hehehe,2 even asked for ur number....happy lah...got market lah....sell high high la...

Ps/ my ears r still ringing...thanks to the excessively high volume of music.

A dAte with myself

HellO~~ You guys must have missed me since I haven’t blog for quite some time until this whole page is full of Edmund’s posts. No yee it won’t become your blog since I’m back. It’s still ours. Haha…

Let’s see, why I was so busy for the past few weeks? Replacement classes, tests, replacement lectures, assignments, more replacement classes, tests, Christmas! (Thank God), and did I mention replacement classes? And don’t even think that they all end with this year, they are well scheduled into January 2009. -.-“

Anyway, the lazy me always will make time to have fun to make up for all these suffering. Including today, I’ve gone out for shopping spree for 3 times in one week. Hehe… but today I’m on my own. In fact, hanging out alone occasionally was quite fun, since I like spending time with myself and I tend to take time seeking stuffs that I like enough to pay for it. So, shopping alone means lots of freedom, lots of effort on time management (still need to work on that) and sore feet at the end of the day. Lol. But hey, I did manage to get what I came for, so it’s all worth it.

When I was hanging around Pavilion, what’s surprising was that here I was replying Edmund’s sms one minute, and in the next his hand appeared in front of me waving me hi. And I turned to find his whole family standing in front of me. Now that I think about it, it’s kinda creepy. This has happened before, when Ed and I was hanging and bumped into his family. I guess that’s partly because there aren’t that many shopping malls in KL. Still…

Btw I’ve found another talent to add to my list --- gift wrapping!



Look at that, isn’t it beautiful? As if it’s done by a pro. Haha…it's kimyen's belated birthday gift. I handpicked it so i love it, hopefully she'll like it too. Don’t get jealous Edmund. I didn’t wrap yours cuz it was cylinder-shaped and I was short of time. Don’t worry, the next gift u get will be wrapped perfectly. ^^

shit

I hate my parents so much.They just love to compare.

Last Christmas

Things arent going tht well for Denise.And so do i.I just came back from our so-called shopping spree.Its my last Xmas here.And most probably with her too,thats what make me much more sad.I dont feel like blogging emo-ly.Though,our outing today wasnt that bad,just that we didnt bought a thing at all,not as we both expected.I really enjoy being with Denise,the most fun part of the whole plan.LOvE u =)

Camwhoring memories~

Deck the halls~

And now im sitting here,on Xmas eve,listening to Mantovani Orchestra,The most Beautiful Christmas instrumentals.Yup,my all time fave.I should be in Daniel's place for the eve,but heck im dumb enough to decline.Haha,poor me now,spending the night all alone blogging.Rejected a few friends to hang around in BB area too,feels awkward for me if u are hanging wiv the not so familiar crowd,dont u think...Anyways,it isnt too bad though as for now.Tommorow will be exchanging gifts wiv Denise and hang around =)

Presents =) Some are for Denise.Most are mine though =P Thanks Daniel and Mummy for most of d pressie's.

grasping for air...

A calvacade of worries is parading in my head again.Seems like it knows no halt.The same old issues.Indecisive.Plus,Denise kinda annoy the hell out of me.Rejected me not once not twice but nineth time for a date.Sedih.But forgiven lah.At least i can comprehend Daniel's frustration when im having exams previously.Sigh,as i realised the fact that im a loner,a bitter one,im 'enjoying this holiday alone'. Great...i realised the bumpy truth that i dont have many close friends,in fact this veracity surfaces whenever im bored.No one in my contact list can be my possible hang out buddy.Either they are much as strangers to me,or they/me dont give a shyte on each other.It kinda infuriates the hell out of me when i somehow found out that im not invited to some parties or whatsoever events or gathering,just because they will come out with a conclusion that i dont bother to show up.Well,read up on courtesy people~Yea same goes to that dumb perception of me being arrogant and cocky.Being a little introvert does not deviate you to the pretentious side.I just dont socialise as much as some loud ppl do * roll eyes*. Baseless notions such as these picture me as someone rude too.Kudos =) to these people who dont know me well.

Plus,there are some lame people...who wants to get to know me by using the most irritatible way.They keep asking you out when they obviously know you dont want too.They keep rushing you to set a date to meet them when you told them multiple times you are unsure.I dont know how to put them down in words,but the way they insist on knowing me more is downright annoyance.If only they can channel their 'spunky' personality and perseverance on keeping the world green,how much the world would be a better place.
Anyway Xmas is near,hopefully its as merry as we all hope for.Cheers.

Hong Kong trip ' 08

On 11th of November i flew to HK with my family to visit my cousin and the extended HK relatives again.It was definitely a very enjoyable trip.Its all about train-taking,walking,shopping and dining in fancy restaurants.I am keeping this post brief,because Denise wants it to be so =(. Afraid i might bore u guys. From Tung Chung to Lamtin,we went almost everywhere worth shopping.We only went to two tourist spots,namely Disneyland and the Peak,and for the rest of our remaing trip,its all about shopping and me against time to spend money,muahaha. Disneyland in HK was surprisingly fun,maybe because i have never been to any one of them until HK. Definitely will go again.

Thanks to Lisa and family for your warmth and hospitality.To view more pictures of me and my family,you can visit http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=69341&l=b7239&id=556301959

Beethoven Virus

Watching Beethoven Virus,the recent popular k-drama, it somehow reminds me of Nodame C. live action (the Japanese version of the series depicting on orchestra play).Maybe one is inspired by the other? Both have similar characters in their version,a stuck-up orchestra conductor/maestro whc then eventually takes up the responsibility to conduct a bunch of ...not so professional players.In doing so,the conductor has grown fond towards them and ultimately,build a strong bond among the players.In Beethoven Virus,the conductor (Kang Gun Woo) is an elite workaholic in 40's whc earned himself a kinda bad reputation for his downright snobbish attitude,self-centred and stubborn personality.Sarcastic remarks and criticism from him are nothing surprising.Sounds familiar? (ring a bell? Chiaki senpai from Nodame.C? Hmmm,i wonder ).In Beethoven V,however has more drama to it,where the conductor meet Du ru Mi,the female violinist who later suffers from hearing impairment.Another protagonist shares the same name with the conductor in this series with his talents that are forced to be reckon with.

Jang Geun Suk as the talented trumpet player XD

The violinist,the talented trumpet player and the conductor ,together,forms a love triangle.Haha,hey come on lah,its korean drama,u should expect DRAMA right...As compared to Nodame C. (the japanese series), its less tense and deviates more to the humor side.More animated gestures,expressions and effects are shown in Nodame.All in all,both are not bad at all to watch, if ya have tht much of free time (like me) =)

~Ini kerja orang bosan~ =D

Right back at ya XD

Friends do not let friends drink alone.

Say hi to pink dino~

Bon Voyage?

I've always wanted to go overseas.When mum asked me today whats holding me back and why am i still procrastinating in giving them a confirmation ,and also to the university,i found myself only to be still stifled in the state of denial.Many things are holding me back. All rooted from fear,i must admit.
Jacko WaCko.Departed to Newcastle.

Manmeet.Departed to Russia.
Harveena,far right.Departed to Australia.

Anais.Departed to UK.

Miss u guys =(

morality...sanity...im just bored.

Oh dear lord,when will i find long winded elations of my life or at least walk me through a path of abortive sorrows.Closed out my interest in multiple worries.Shed lights on my resltess soul. Hmmm,im bored.

Seems that boredom do physco a person out *blinks*.Ah well, realising i have not register let alone prepare for IELTS while time is (sorta) against me,i choose to ignore it for a moment.Gee...

Boredom,hehehee.It was the kind of time in my life when something happens to nudge its morality from its resting place and make it bubble to the surface and float for a while.At least from my definition of morality.Morality in sense of alot of arguing with my /the significant others,which lead to break ups or otherwise a good dose of sexs.Yea,this is how i epitomise the beauty of my holidayyyyy.But all these were so last year.Ok,maybe last few years.It always seems like a cycle,a relentless pathway with no halt.Yet,i do admit i love the bitter joy,a little.Bear in mind (morality = sanity).

Im writing this post,not in a heartbroken state and no,to begin with,im not going through any break ups.Haha,im just simply bored.Recounting history.Not that there are recurrent histories of bittersweet puppy love of mine.Im just plain bloody bored.Recalling the experiences i've gone through.Little events,ordinary things can turn ugly which are then pivoted to be smashed and reconstituted.And you are imbued with new meaning towards love.

Im writing this because i saw a mirror image of myself through my friend's eyes.Making excuses to love someone is rather foolish.Hope things go well between him n his partner.

~~~I MISS MY ONE AND ONLY PUI YEE AS FOR NOW~~~love love love.

Time Out

When everyone asks how things were lately, I always reply that it has been a hellish week. Indeed, it has. As if things weren’t bad enough for my dad, the lecturers seemed to think this week’s fengshui was really suited for examinations and assignment due dates. So, basically I spent the entire week rushing assignments and studying last minute for tests. Every night I sorted through the tutorial questions which I never got the time to attempt, and the next morning I’ll find myself looking at the tutor in expectant of answers. And mind you, things have been this way for most subjects for the past few weeks.

To make up for like 3 public holidays, at least 4 of our blissful Saturdays were snatched from us, scheduled with replacement lectures. Not to mention those hours of staying back on other weekdays for replacement tutorials. If you think about it seriously, it’s not really worth it.

One thing’s for sure, I’m glad that it’s finally weekend. Dad’s just got discharged on Friday, looking okay at the moment. We’re trying to eat healthy now. Less oil, less salt, less meat. More fish, more vege, and more fruits. I’ll take some time to adjust to it. But I have absolutely no prob with more fruits. Love them. And I’ve got different choices of combinations every day. Thanks to friends and family who visited Dad. =D

Anyway, I shud b getting ready to d old frens gathering now at the uSual place. When I hav a car to drive, first thing I'd do is chAnge the gathering location.
-.-"

Ok...so what now?

I woke up this morning only to find myself perplexed and daze,to find there's nothing to feel anxious about.Nothing ahead of me.Nothing planned for the rest of my mediocre day.Nothing to get done with.Nothing to sigh for.Just ,well, nothing. 20th of November marked the end of my A2 examination,so i've officially ended my college life.It ended abruptly,i must say.Its been a long run for this term,really draining me out.A month long examination wasn't fun,obviously.College life seems to be hectic,speeding throughout the course like an excited ground state electron,vigorous,anxiously waiting to be emancipated from the attraction of the nuclues (translation: to be liberated from the confinement of my studies & the syllabus).

Its a year and a half of pre-u studies,seems adequately short but think again.Really,you ought to do alot of rethinking about it.A-levels is a crash course?Nah.Its eating up my time, and im still disillusioned about what i wanna do next while other friends of mine are already taking degree programme overseas.Reaching college at 8am daily just to find yourself equating life to routine is not really much of a fun idea.Even coming back home from college is a wee bit of a challenge for me,which pretty much explain why i dont bother to dress oh-so-pretty to classes.Anyway,i enjoyed this embarkment,and for sure i will cherish and treasure the memories i had.The creaking door of my tutorial class,the treetops around the compound that swayed in the breeze,the cool chemistry lab,lecturers and the friends i've met ,shaken my nerve quite a bit now to think about it,embracing the oddity,the nostalgic quaintness.Wow, i actually feel like im gonna miss my college,ahaks.Seems like im having a mild post-college trauma.

And here i am,engulfed by boredom.The long awaited boredom.That kind of boredom that need you not to think about life that much.The freedom to my 'boredom' was eventually cut short,only fleeting momentarily when mum brought up about Denise in the dinner table.A silent shade of gray appeared on her face,seems like what the dinner lamp only illuminates her moving lips.That trigger me instantly.I can feel my synapses are no longer working right.I asked her to stop.I remembered something.A few weeks before my last paper,Denise told me she got a really tragic news,and she would only let me know after i finish my exam,and that was it.I told her everything is going to be alright,the only words that can transcend her worries at that moment.I snapped out of the conversation with mum,by which it ended by a little dash of her sarcasm, "Oh you still dont know,huh? Weird...Thought you are her..." I sensed mockery.By which will turn awry if i still bother her stupid senseless teasing.I just protested that she will only let me know later so as to not affect me in my exams.

As for now,the prudent question is not for me.Its for her.Denise,ok...so what now?

uNtitled~

I understand that life is never meant to be easy. Different people face different kinds of challenges and difficulties in their lives. We humans have no say in deciding what’s going to happen tomorrow, but we can only decide how we’re going to live through tomorrow. Being optimistic, have faith and all that, yea.

I’m not here to complain bout every single trivial matter in my daily life. (I do realize that there’re billions of ppl out there struggling to even survive while I’m here blogging in the comfort of my own room) But lately I just have kind of bit too much to be worried of.
Despite the fact that I finally have the time to sit before my desk and do my tutorials, the sight of those complicated questions made me sick (if I haven’t felt sick already from all those problems).

Dear God, please let some hope shine through these gloomy days. I really need that right now.

thE wiSh~

So, i'm officially 18 for a day. "18 sui, pok pok cui~" Haha...yesterday was quite simple & nice. Went out wiv sum frenz for dinner and yumcha~ Not bad la ky, for a first timer driving alone. Looking on the bright side, at least ur speed was keeping all of us alive. But make sure u're on the right track though, especially at nite. Else kena dipenyekkan olh lori besar~


Btw, for peeps who still thinks that they shud giv der frens the key of freedom at 21, get updated guys. In Malaysia, we actually turn into a major at the age of 18. Source: Age of Majority Act 1961 (muz show off sum of my Business Law after cramming so much into ma brain laz sem haha...)

Unlike the previous years, my emotions were so negatively affected this birthday. The only thing i've been desperately hoping for will be known tmr. I never expect for miracle. I jz hope that everything turn out to be well and optimistic...

tHe fiRst post

Finally, I’ve written my very first post for this long-awaited blog. This blog has been planned ages ago, but it was only done by today. For one thing, procrastination has always been my innate habit, especially when it comes to things which are not vital to my survival. I delay tasks up till few days before deadline (if there is any) or until one fine day when I am urged by a sudden enthusiasm. Apparently today appears to be one of those fine days. =P

For computer-language-illiterate ppl like me, simply altering these codes and to make stuffs stay where I wanted them to, took me 4 hours long. Phew! Though, I admit that it was kinda fun to experiment by messing around and finally tasted some success.
As for Edmund over there, I’d assumed that he’s never been keen over time consuming matters such as blog designs and all those freaking confusing html codes… if these have tested my patience, I doubt if he has any to begin with… Lol.

Oh, forgive me if I haven’t mention. This blog isn’t owned by one person. It belongs to two best friends whose intelligence and beauty surpass all those average human. Haha…just kidding. Look forward to future posts for more intro on ourselves. ^^ Edmund and I have been planning to set up a shared blog eva since ages ago, yet none of us took any practical actions up till now. At least now one of us did. *glares at Edmund*

Well, I’ll forgive him since he’s currently sitting for his final papers in A-Levels… Talking about exams, it reminds me that I have a coursework test coming next week. At this very moment, I should be there in front of my study desk updating the tutorials which I’m left behind and start working on reports and meeting minutes that have been on my task list for more than a week. Yet, I’m here...

Nowadays whenever I’m facing my lecture notes, my mind just couldn’t help but wandering off to thousands of miles away… Anyway, time to get back to the harsh reality. I’ll be back for more updates and layout improvements.

Meanwhile, let's wish that papaya best of luCk and do really well in his examz. =)

DeNise~