ex

XXX™ says:
i want to know so that i wont think much
Ed.MuN.d ~*entangled & entwined*~ says:
hows ur gf in russia?
XXX™ says:
i dun like her
Ed.MuN.d ~*entangled & entwined*~ says:
why not
XXX™ says:
it's for my parents only
Ed.MuN.d ~*entangled & entwined*~ says:
so mean.

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Ed.MuN.d ~*entangled & entwined*~ says:
treat ur gf right

its unfair for her
XXX™ says:
shit u
Ed.MuN.d ~*entangled & entwined*~ says:
haha
sorry none of my business
XXX™ says:
say hi to your lover

Your Video Call has ended.

КенЛи™ says:
bye

Yes, i do remembered what happened on 6th of June 2006 .

Hey

Miss me?

today

Woke up at 9.30am.Had sex at 10.
Ordered mecca at 1.45pm.
Bummed till 6pm.
Gym n sauna at 7.
Dinner at 9pm.
Online till now 2.22am.
XD nice...

Good food

Great gifts


But better companion =)

Merry Christmas

Best Wishes

more to come...hehe

madafaker

He thinks he's always right.So fed up.

Pui Yee, im sad...Everytime ,whenever I feel like talking about my probs, once I ringed you up, I would feeeeel so reluctant to talk about, and we started to crap.Again. -.-

tired

last night, i met a slut.in msn. total wastage of my phalanges' effort to induce workforce to press against my keyboard.to refute her comments.
and today i met another one.in real person.just sooo tired.

Falalalala~

Hey hey! It’s the time of the year again, Christmas!! =D

I love walking through the malls around this time, because every corner is beautifully adorned with decorations that just give you the jolly atmosphere. Christmas songs are the main reason why I prefer Christmas over other festive holidays, even the CNY. CNY songs are just too… err, a bit too loud for my liking. Nothing about idolizing western culture, it’s just my nature to like things peaceful and serene.

Btw, has anyone eaten gingerbread man cookie before? I’m just curious, since it’s rarely sold here and when I saw one, I won’t buy it ‘cause I think it’s one of those things that look cute but taste just so-so… I saw one at the christmas carnival today at college. Should go and buy one tomorrow. =D

Till Thursday on Chrismas Eve, I still have a test to sit for. Aih. Nowadays I feel so demotivated when it comes to Audit. Anyway, think cheerful! After the test I’m gonna take a few days break to indulge in the Christmas joy~

And I’ve got a long shopping list to be ticked off one by one. Ah… wishing everyone a fun and joyful Christmas!



How good if we can have snow and chimney just for two days in Malaysia.

(of course, with those come the Santa and his goodies)

(actually, don't really care about santa as long as the goodies came XD)

Urgh

I HATE ABFA 4155 Audit and Assurance paper.

Hate it.

Jz let me, by a miracle (cuz that's what I need) or something, pass this freaking paper.
I'll be eternally grateful.

X'mas wishlist

What I want for Christmas XD

1. Jerseys/Hoodies
2. Big ass headphone
3. Shiseido Zen range gift set
4. Kose skin care product(s)
5. Tht cute paul frank keychain
6. Hahaha,teddy bears?
7. DSLR !
8. to be continued...

Retiring at my prime

I have been working in Pavilion, L'occitane to be specific,start to love it since I often hit my sales target. Achieved sales target = higher incentive. But then, you know how good things dont last long, and thats when you have to make the prudent choice to step down. XD

blank

A couple of days ago, I'd told myself yes, its time for a change.Yes, less bitter me equates an optimistic me which of course in turn brings out the less pissy-er side of me,less negative vibes from me, and therefore, a cheerful blog =D
Well, needless to say, things are cut short (again) for me.
Mum is always wondering why am I such a mood swinger.The answer is rather simple and easy, Im sad, which is most probably the last thing she wants to hear, or at least now, she is reluctant to.
This year has exuberantly melancholic for me. See, I contradict myself again.It only has been a year but it seems like a lifelong journey. And I on my humble note, still acknowledge that I have not earn the virtues of academic.Its a lifelong challenge.
Waking up today was not a challenge, but checking my results was indeed a heart thumping moment.It was just 9.38 am, and my friends all the way from NZ keep buzzing me to check my results.
I recite my little prayer under my breath.Seems so,unfortunately,it doesnt help much.In fact, it doesnt help at all.
The first law of thermodynamics states the total energy of the universe is constant, or more usefully that energy in all its form cannot be created or destroyed , though the various forms are interconvertible.Light energy can be converted into chemical energy, heat energy can be converted into mechanical energy and so on.Living organisms obey this law.This make me one of them.I've heard myself doing monologue " Please be strong Yee Zhi Hua" or "please suppress your feelings;at least for now " for innumerable times, more so than I've found myself having a decent conversation with my parents.
Being paralysed of expressing one's guilt,regret, and sorrow is one the hardest feeling I ought to endure.To me, saying ' Hey Im so fucked in this exams and Im sad ' in my facebook profile may as well sound the death knell to me.It seems to be engraved on my forehead and speaks for a victorious battle for my fellow friends/classmates/coursemates whatever you wanna call them. I swore I never tell my parents how depressed Im during those days and of course, now. What kind of child would let them worry?And I know them the best,on how would they respond.
It seems so hard for me to swallow the fact that I've studied so much and got nothing close to what I've aimed for. Yes, it sucks. And yes I told myself to MAN UP~ But for how long can I persist? Its like an uncontrollable mitosis, a chain of causality with many known and unknown confounders.Its been a year of five hours of sleep,non stop.I feel the tremendous pang of pain, but yet I have to restrain it from time to time.
Like come on, Daniel begin to show his discomfort as 'I give him the negative vibes'.And so does the other co-author of this blog.
I cant talk to my parents, most definitely not to my friends back in NZ, not even allowed to do so in facebook,or anywhere with them around and now a coherent image of me not able to talk to anyone but this non responsive blog begin to emerge. ( i feel so fucking confined and aimless)
And now after ranting, Im back to square one, back to my starting point,nothing has changed.Oprah didnt witness this,haha.
Im tired.IM tired of wanting people to know that Im tired.Im tired of me acting like this.Im tired of being so hard-out when in the end, I got nothing near to satisfactory.Im tired of being tired.


If only God has a contact number, I'd ring him.

Starting Anew

It’s time I change my study strategy. Yep, it takes almost failing (I sure hope that I didn’t fail it) a paper for me to realize how severe a situation I’m in. But at least I’m not too late yet, and not too far gone yet (again, at least I hope so).

Ever since advanced diploma started, my results seemed to have gone down straight even though I had more time to study compared to my diploma years. Apparently whatever I’m doing, it’s not good enough.

I believe yesterday’s failure will not be in vain. At the very least, I’ve gained the realization to change, to improve. If my classmates can do it, I can definitely try. I will keep trying, instead of in a state of semi-giving up. Things will not change for better on its own. Feeling lost when faced with a question paper is a feeling I absolutely hate. I’m not used to it, and I don’t intend to be.

No use complaining about not enough time man. Catching up with syllabus which lecturers simply breezed through every lecture without a care about your understanding, heaps of tutorials with their mind-boggling questions, time consuming preparation for presentations, assignment deadlines that comes one after another or sometimes all at once… It’s the same every single semester, and probably it’ll get worse by time.

So it’s time for a challenge!
If I try, there’s a chance of success. If I don’t, heh, not even a chance.

a year of endless disappointment

I checked my results, moments ago.
Not good =(

Answers

I was laying down on my bed looking back at the photos that I've took in NZ and I recalled some of the most stupid questions that people often thrown at me.Frequently asked questions (some are effing retarded) are....

~You told me you were stressful and all.How come you look like you are having a good time in the those pictures you've uploaded in facebook?

Do you take pictures of yourself stressing out or when ya having exams? Or when ya in the state of longing for someone to lend their shoulders for you to cry on? Use at least half of ur brain plz.

~Hows Australia?

Piss off, Im in NZ.

~Do they have supermarkets in NZ?

NOOOO, trust me we dont,we feed on trees and wild animals.

~Do you see sheeps/lambs/cows everywhere?

No, we live in the city...Its not quite what you imagined. Its more developed.

~Does it snows over there?

Yes, esp in the south.

~Are they racist?

Who isnt?

~Do they have Asians there?

Heaps.

~Western country = laidback lifestyle.

You are so wrong.

~Why NZ?

cuz its cheaper than ... and better than... =)

~Do you miss home?

-.-"

~Wow your parents didnt accompany you for your first trip there.Arent you scared/worried?

-.-"

~Arent you sad when you first left?

*Its like a dumbfuck reporter asking a fire victim whether is he devastated over the loss of his loved ones...*

Me Likey-s ~

<3>My baby destroyer =)

Delusional~

I know I've said that given a choice between coursework exams and group assignments, I'd choose the latter.

But I didn't take into account the situation when lecturers and tutors give stupid contradicting "instructions" and resulted in us being stuck in between. I don't think they've ever heard of the word standardizing before, although they should be veRy familiar with consistency. Don't skip that procedure of sitting down and stardardizing, just because you don't like each other. I thought adults should be mature.
You want us give you consistency, then YOU give us consistency first.

Oh and before u start dreaming about how to make the assignments more interesting by asking us to find this and that, are u sure those detailed information is even available to public in the first place?

Since im back...

It has been (approx) two weeks since I’ve arrived KL, but I have yet to adjust myself to this extremely warm weather and slowly creeping back into the sedentary lifestyle ( yup, I’ve constantly reminded myself that this is one of the environmental factor that leads to obesity).

Anyway, Im so bored these few days I bought random stuffs, and I am pretty surprised how easy am I to be pleased.

I bought a mirror that looks like a cookie... and sis gave me stickers. Girly aye...but hey fret not, I got reasons behind purchasing these goods...XD

Went to The Gardens yesterday, nothing much , just had our breakfast in Canton-i.

Mummy

Yea, kinda feasty judging its just breakfast.But hey, we skipped lunch as usual and had light dinner.

greatest fear

im very scared of my future.very.
and its soon.sooner than ive thought.
for now,i tried not to think about it.
but i cant help but just be apprehensive abt it.

lalala

Pui Yee = stupid

The Back Attack

Being back is not as particularly fun as expected.I've got so many pimples since Ive arrived here.Piss the shyte out of me.Amazing what KL can do to u only for just a few days.Plus,the heat is killing me.
And I've got this sucky rm48 haircut.

Moreover,My laptop is fcking playing tricks on me.Cant download any games, cant login to MsN as usual,sometimes going on9 is a big ass challenge to me...
LOL sucks to be me right now. PYee aint in a good mood these few days oso.Can imagine her being surrounded by those yellow hazardous tape.
PS: damn frus.mcb.go away la pimples.......

final day with buds in Dunedin

counting...

a few more hours to home.
ps : im heart broken to find out something.good thing im leaving otago for now.XD

Emo

Its half past four in the morning now. I woke up today without having any reasons to be awaken.No studying, no reviewing lab reports,no nothing.And then I slowly realise that my room is no longer like my room anymore.Its so foreign,much resemblance to the very first glance of my room the first day i came to Carrington.

Its sad arriving here first day, and definitely sad to leave here on the last.How time has passed,before you know it, everything is gone.To me, its just crudely mould.In a cruel manner.Everything.

All my close friends left, and Carrington, or specifically Stuart house has lost its definition.Its such weird feeling that I cant randomly knock on their door,talk randomly,do study groups, laughed about ridiculous stuffs,do things together.

I miss being annoyed.I miss listening to lame jokes,kiddy talks, and nerdy science-y talks...Haha.

Im just being emo at 4am.

memories

Before your very eyes, you feel like the surroundings start to engulf you, the inner feeling of yours start to swell, and then you begin to dwell into a world of surrealism. Much like the feeling of being phagocytosed, I assumed. One minute, we were all studying so hard, we skipped all meals, laundry times and all possible shower times. Yup, that’s how intense Health Science was. But the very next thing you realise is that finals are finally over, over and done with. With just 3 papers only in this semester, I have no idea why is it still bloody suffocating to handle all these subjects. And yesterday was our last time spending quality time together. Its kinda sad as we could only spend a few ‘true’ hours together, never for once relating our lives to our future career, or say, define our conversation on the basis of our average GPA. Its even more sad for me to think about how things have changed, our friends are all diverging, friendships are no longer as solid as we first met.
Everyone went to their own separate ways, do their own things, creating drama and bitching. And it was a brief night, a night where we sorta have dinner together and then went to do separate things somehow but reunite and do separated things again.Weird aye. And we still are awake till 4am.This morning I have sent them all off. One by one. Sadly, my friend cried. I was real sad too. And I realised most of us feels the same way. We have gone through so many stupid stressful events. She hugged me.
And now, sitting at the same spot, along the very same corridor, where I was a week ago doing my revision for Human anatomy and physiology, but now with a complete turn of event. This floor is so empty, and I cant hardly imagine how solitude a person can be in after such a long time. I was so excited to get back to KL but now its dampened. The fact that my family and friends are back home do make me feel really happy, but the another fact that the place Ive been brought up is pretty fcuked up do turns me off.
Omg...i dunno what am i rambling about...
Its just so weird.Everyone is gone now.SO weird. Everything just happen in a very compressed time frame.Similar to our demographic and epidemiologic transition in an accelerating mode,in the settings of urbanization.SO weird.ANd i miss them.Ironically.I miss hating them too.

hell science is officially over.

I really dislike packing.if its on a large scale.

Its been hell of a long year, and yea, like everyone else im excited about getting it over and done with.

Im not gonna blog much about Health Science and stuffs now…just wanna upload some pics will do.

Trust me, my room was ten times worse than the picture shown.Provides little evidence on how untidy i am. Seriously, during this health sci final season, my whole room was filled with Notes, with post it's and stick up notes all over my wall,4 corner stones.
Im just glad its over now.