To Freeze That Instant Moment

Don’t know why, but I think I’m someone who gets lonely, at certain times. Like, when I’m emotionally weak and nobody is around to talk to. Everyone gets that. It’s just the matter of how they deal with it.

At these times, often, my best way to channel out my feelings is by writing it down. Blogs just aren’t the same. I like to write, to feel my inner thoughts pouring out from the tip of the pencil, to listen to the sounds of words being scratched onto the papers, until the pages are full with my own handwriting, and keep going on till my hand feels slightly sore. I’m sure some people would understand what I mean. Keyboard and monitor just doesn’t give you the same level of satisfaction. Haha… not to mention blogs are meant to be open to readers. It’s like exposing a part of you that’s normally hidden from view from others.

But the reason blogging is popular, I think, is exactly that. Everyone hopes to be understood, at least, by a few certain people. To be known more, and to be accepted (to some extent?).

Though preferring papers over computers, I think diary is too bothersome to maintain. But I do have a nice little book for this purpose. It’s really thin, you know, to keep me from feeling the pressure to fill its pages. Haha…

Please don’t attempt to read by zooming in btw. But anyhow it’s in Chinese and the photo quality is quite bad. Hahaha, so most of you couldn’t read it anyway. =P

Anyway I'm just blabbering now 'cause no one is around. Where have all the people gone to? Lol.

Is the only way of succeeding is done only by some underlying sorts of betrayal? Is being evil the only way to cheat your way through life?
I bet that there will be alot of answers protesting against these statements.But they are spoken words,merely.Far opposite from what myself have witness.
If your intention is to hurt me, you are doing it perfectly right.Right on note.
Now I know the feeling that EVERYONE is an ACTOR.Life is just another form of staged play.You can never trust anyone.
Learn your lesson already,Edmund.It hurts getting betrayed and bitched.
Be a bitch to ya,be even a bigger bitch to them.

social withdrawal

fucking hate this shyte.Ppl are so revolting.

I'm a happy girl!

Haha... a fruitful shopping spree and having a well deserved holiday do this to people. ^^

PAISEH-nya!!!

Hmm...nothing...

Anyway....

Finally, three months and a week of internship is finally over! =D

Fuh~ I can now breathe a sigh of relief. Actually starting from the last two weeks, I’ve been counting down with my friends. Haha… and my last week there is certainly not boring than before the tax deadline, if not more interesting.

On the last few days, first I got food poison because of a mere few pieces of roti jala + curry chicken. Don’t ask me why, ‘cause the rest of the gang ate it too and nobody but me had any problem with it. After (finally) being able to utilize my one day per month of MC, (although not as happy as I thought I would be), I then went back to work. Before this, all of us interns thought our lives would be easier and more relaxing after the tax filing deadline ends at 30th April. Well, no such luck pals. Work’s still keep coming till literally the last minute, 5:32pm on our last day. Till we say that we needa do clearance and return our IDs and laptops.

But it was also on our last two day that we got to interact more on a personal basis with the seniors. Had our self-organized farewell dinner with all the interns and few of the seniors at Chilies on the last day. I only regretted that I have to suppress my laughter the entire night due to a mysterious pang of pain at my ribcage and a bloated stomach (due to Chilies’ super large portions). It was superb. =D (despite i looked ugly in the candid photos, but nvm)

And if I have to summarize the gist of last three months into few words, I would pick: Exhausting and Good experience. I have learnt a lot, and most important of them being the skills to deal with people and the right attitude at work.

The last three months have not been a waste of energy and it’s way better than wasted lazing at home and being couch (or computer chair) potato.

And cheers to meeting my new good friends. =)

The truth hurts...

Im a person full of hatred.Just because I hold onto my own equation of quantifying oneself in the worth of self integrity. I will continue to remind myself that Im battling within myself, not just with them, so that I wont lose easily to this war.

Dignity

Yep, that’s one word you remind me of.

I might not be perfect, far from it. But I do have some self dignity.
If I am mistaken, prove me wrong. Else, staying away might be a better option.

Better now than later, right?