Ok...so what now?

I woke up this morning only to find myself perplexed and daze,to find there's nothing to feel anxious about.Nothing ahead of me.Nothing planned for the rest of my mediocre day.Nothing to get done with.Nothing to sigh for.Just ,well, nothing. 20th of November marked the end of my A2 examination,so i've officially ended my college life.It ended abruptly,i must say.Its been a long run for this term,really draining me out.A month long examination wasn't fun,obviously.College life seems to be hectic,speeding throughout the course like an excited ground state electron,vigorous,anxiously waiting to be emancipated from the attraction of the nuclues (translation: to be liberated from the confinement of my studies & the syllabus).

Its a year and a half of pre-u studies,seems adequately short but think again.Really,you ought to do alot of rethinking about it.A-levels is a crash course?Nah.Its eating up my time, and im still disillusioned about what i wanna do next while other friends of mine are already taking degree programme overseas.Reaching college at 8am daily just to find yourself equating life to routine is not really much of a fun idea.Even coming back home from college is a wee bit of a challenge for me,which pretty much explain why i dont bother to dress oh-so-pretty to classes.Anyway,i enjoyed this embarkment,and for sure i will cherish and treasure the memories i had.The creaking door of my tutorial class,the treetops around the compound that swayed in the breeze,the cool chemistry lab,lecturers and the friends i've met ,shaken my nerve quite a bit now to think about it,embracing the oddity,the nostalgic quaintness.Wow, i actually feel like im gonna miss my college,ahaks.Seems like im having a mild post-college trauma.

And here i am,engulfed by boredom.The long awaited boredom.That kind of boredom that need you not to think about life that much.The freedom to my 'boredom' was eventually cut short,only fleeting momentarily when mum brought up about Denise in the dinner table.A silent shade of gray appeared on her face,seems like what the dinner lamp only illuminates her moving lips.That trigger me instantly.I can feel my synapses are no longer working right.I asked her to stop.I remembered something.A few weeks before my last paper,Denise told me she got a really tragic news,and she would only let me know after i finish my exam,and that was it.I told her everything is going to be alright,the only words that can transcend her worries at that moment.I snapped out of the conversation with mum,by which it ended by a little dash of her sarcasm, "Oh you still dont know,huh? Weird...Thought you are her..." I sensed mockery.By which will turn awry if i still bother her stupid senseless teasing.I just protested that she will only let me know later so as to not affect me in my exams.

As for now,the prudent question is not for me.Its for her.Denise,ok...so what now?

uNtitled~

I understand that life is never meant to be easy. Different people face different kinds of challenges and difficulties in their lives. We humans have no say in deciding what’s going to happen tomorrow, but we can only decide how we’re going to live through tomorrow. Being optimistic, have faith and all that, yea.

I’m not here to complain bout every single trivial matter in my daily life. (I do realize that there’re billions of ppl out there struggling to even survive while I’m here blogging in the comfort of my own room) But lately I just have kind of bit too much to be worried of.
Despite the fact that I finally have the time to sit before my desk and do my tutorials, the sight of those complicated questions made me sick (if I haven’t felt sick already from all those problems).

Dear God, please let some hope shine through these gloomy days. I really need that right now.

thE wiSh~

So, i'm officially 18 for a day. "18 sui, pok pok cui~" Haha...yesterday was quite simple & nice. Went out wiv sum frenz for dinner and yumcha~ Not bad la ky, for a first timer driving alone. Looking on the bright side, at least ur speed was keeping all of us alive. But make sure u're on the right track though, especially at nite. Else kena dipenyekkan olh lori besar~


Btw, for peeps who still thinks that they shud giv der frens the key of freedom at 21, get updated guys. In Malaysia, we actually turn into a major at the age of 18. Source: Age of Majority Act 1961 (muz show off sum of my Business Law after cramming so much into ma brain laz sem haha...)

Unlike the previous years, my emotions were so negatively affected this birthday. The only thing i've been desperately hoping for will be known tmr. I never expect for miracle. I jz hope that everything turn out to be well and optimistic...

tHe fiRst post

Finally, I’ve written my very first post for this long-awaited blog. This blog has been planned ages ago, but it was only done by today. For one thing, procrastination has always been my innate habit, especially when it comes to things which are not vital to my survival. I delay tasks up till few days before deadline (if there is any) or until one fine day when I am urged by a sudden enthusiasm. Apparently today appears to be one of those fine days. =P

For computer-language-illiterate ppl like me, simply altering these codes and to make stuffs stay where I wanted them to, took me 4 hours long. Phew! Though, I admit that it was kinda fun to experiment by messing around and finally tasted some success.
As for Edmund over there, I’d assumed that he’s never been keen over time consuming matters such as blog designs and all those freaking confusing html codes… if these have tested my patience, I doubt if he has any to begin with… Lol.

Oh, forgive me if I haven’t mention. This blog isn’t owned by one person. It belongs to two best friends whose intelligence and beauty surpass all those average human. Haha…just kidding. Look forward to future posts for more intro on ourselves. ^^ Edmund and I have been planning to set up a shared blog eva since ages ago, yet none of us took any practical actions up till now. At least now one of us did. *glares at Edmund*

Well, I’ll forgive him since he’s currently sitting for his final papers in A-Levels… Talking about exams, it reminds me that I have a coursework test coming next week. At this very moment, I should be there in front of my study desk updating the tutorials which I’m left behind and start working on reports and meeting minutes that have been on my task list for more than a week. Yet, I’m here...

Nowadays whenever I’m facing my lecture notes, my mind just couldn’t help but wandering off to thousands of miles away… Anyway, time to get back to the harsh reality. I’ll be back for more updates and layout improvements.

Meanwhile, let's wish that papaya best of luCk and do really well in his examz. =)

DeNise~