Bitch

Funny how things can turn sour by just split seconds.
It was a fun relaxing night (supposingly for me) but when one my friends implied tht im stupid,i got the rudest shock ever.She retreated from asking me question and said i would not know it anyway under her breath.Clearly,i heard her.MCB.
Bitches like these should rot in hell.Obviously im offended.If u were to ask someone for help or a question dont act like u dont even bother knowing the answer from the person you've just asked.And if u look down on my capability in the first place,dont even question me in the first place.
Was drinking in James' room and got a lil tipsy...but hell not after how she acted.ANd now its almost 2am,& im studying,diriku rasa tercabar...Urgh...GOd when wOuLD u end my SufferriNgs~


wonder why dont they even have a single page tht tells you on how to torture ur brain...oh ya...the whole book is.silly me.on serious note,its fun to study HUBS,but not when ya cramming for exams...><

who speaks what?

Its funny to have this mentality.Funny to say, i hate being me but i just could nt help it.Flying to a western country,a region where it is inhabited by caucasians,having the happy thoughts tht i could break free from some yoke of typical Asian traits.Not a trait to be exactly proud of.
Kiasu-nism is indeed a uninversal syndrome.Among students.Among nerds.Among try hards.Among the anti-social.Among the 'asians'.Call them whatever u want.It still prevails and prevalent.
It 'thrives' through era,battling through revolution,the inner you still wanna compete.Be it in Kuala Lumpur or in Dunedin,wackos are still wackos.Wankers are still...erm wankers.People annoy, people brag , people being judgemental, there are just people being...shit hole people.Nvm,i dont make sense here.
I hate this environment,but seems like i can never avoid it.Its just part of my life, i just have to embrace it.I have been so depressed lately,it may sound ridiculous if i tell u why.But ya,i screwed up a question...in my lab exit test.A question= one mark.I,myself,never thought i can be this depressed because of losing one mark.Who should i blame ? People around me XD.
Now its half past eleven in the city of Dunedin,people are out partying n raving at The Hop,embracing the theme of fluorescent night.Whos left in the hall of my residence? The ones for med and dent.There are 8 ppl around me now,in the study room,7 are my friends.Studying.Their arse off, and me,annoyed,ranting abt kiasu-nism.Thinking how to dominate world super power without being kiasu.preferably not everyone but me.I hate the fact that people can overlook friendship just to get past year examination papers.I hate friends hiding things from each other.I hate hypocrisy.
I hate eating 2 bowls of maggi noodles.Yuck.
I should continue studying chemistry.Fcuk.Tata.

I think something's wrong with me

Just as the title says.
Even though i can foresee that most probably it'll do nothing but depress me further, the curiousity in me still took over and my right hand automatically navigated the mouse and clicked into it.

Sometimes, the less you know the better it is. If one's heart is not opened, it's really hard to change his/her perception isn't it?

Should I learn how to care more, or care less? haha...
Maybe it's like an experiment. If more doesn't work, then make it less. Hmm..

wHo's tht?

look wat new zealand has done to me...

to be continued

our times together

Hmm… another semester has come and gone. This one was especially fast, or so I felt. As what they say, time flies when you enjoy it. And this is probably the “honeymoon sem” they grant us before we are to face those “tough ACCA papers” in advance diploma. Nevertheless, enjoy while I still can. =D

To recap what had happened this sem, I would summarize it into two words – macam holiday lah. Ok that's three words. Haha… we have, for the first time in our two years together, gone for a class trip in Genting. Undeniably fun. That was my very first time on roller coasters. Closely followed by my second, third and forth. XD

I think my heart might have paused beating (not stopped, else I won’t be here blogging) for more than a few times during those thrill rides. It was kinda reckless I know, given my heart condition and all. But I made sure I don’t cross the lines I’ve drawn myself, else I’ll probably have a difficult time myself, let alone convincing others.

The weather was so great that I couldn't refrain myself from taking pictures every now and then. Cooling yet not raining, my fav climate. There was one point the entire lake was covered in mist. So beautiful. Beyond the pondok was the lake.

Camwhoring while waiting for the themepark to open. (Slightly too early lol) It opens at 10am.

Don’t worry kimyen lynyen, this private blog not known by many =P (They have this weird fear of showing their faces online.) Peek for more in facebook. wakaka.

Peter the bag seller stopped by to pose with Shea Ling. He was yelling:" sepuluh ringgit satu! sepuluh ringgit satu!" Lol.

Few days ago after our last lecture together as DAC 2B Group 16, we went for a steamboat dinner somewhere in Setapak. The name was something like” dian hua fan dian” (Telephone Restaurant). So my mind automatically generated an image of a cozy restaurant dimly lit by yellow lights, with round tables on which steamboat pots are installed, around which bunches of students huddled together for a hot steamboat with variety of soups. (Eg. Tomyam, cheese or chocholate, which both I have only heard but yet to try for myself) And of course, air-conditioned.

When Peter dropped us off at the car park, however, the first thing that came out of my mouth was, “Eh, here ar?”

Guess the name gave me higher hopes. Looking up at the name board was written “Talipon Restaurant”. *smacks head* It was that kind of hawker restaurant “dai pai tong”, only that this one fully belongs to a buffet-styled steamboat + bbq.

The food was not bad, seafood like prawns and crabs were quite fresh. Though, the steam was constantly blown in my direction by the wind (we sat outdoor), thus we were already sweating within barely half an hour. =.=

Question of the day: Why is it called Talipon Restoran? Not a single telephone was anywhere to be seen. Weird.

Group 16, although we haven't exactly form a close relationship with the entire class, it was nice to have known you guys. Everyone seems to have different sides once we know them better. =)

Here's our close bunch of friends. See you guys in adv diploma~

*pics credited to ky and yiyin*

B to the O-Ring

Yeapz,seems like im stranded in Carrington for the longest time,yet i dont quite hope my break is over,just yet,because because because,i've got Physi191 mid year exam...coming shortly after this break.Yup mid year exam...so much for the word 'mid year'.Its nowhere near to June.Urgh...guess its another event tht marks the HSFY students' calender,approaching to the end of our first semester...hopefully.Anyway,enough crapping for now.Picture or so called mise en scene time ~!

Introducin Joanna Lee,a famous korean celebrity XD

(i swear she'll kill me if she sees this,having 2nd thought of uploading her pic curi curi)



Harmony, Bonjo & Me immitating her signature pose. =)


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we love ya joanna !!!

happy easter day. ( dont b pissed if ya

somehow bump into this post == soweeeee)

time of your life

I wasn't in the best state of my own emotions these days.
But i'd come across some nice songs while i was browsing thru youtube mv's.

Good morning, yesterday

You wake up and time has slipped away

And suddenly it's hard to find

The memories you left behind

Remember, do you remember
The laughter and the tears

The shadows of misty yesteryears

All the good times and the bad you've seen

And all the others in between


Remember, do you remember

The times of your life

(Do you remember)

Reach back for the joy and the sorrow

Put them away in your mind

For memories are time that you borrow

To spend when you get to tomorrow

Here comes the setting sun

(Comes the setting sun )
The seasons are passing one by one

So gather moments while you may

Collect the dreams you dream today

Remember, will you remember
The times of your life

So gather moments while you may

Collect the dreams you dream today

Remember, will you remember

The times of your life

Of your life

(Do you remember, baby ) (Do you remember the times of your life)

Of your life (Do you remember, baby )

(Do you remember the times of your life)

Cravings~

How good if Secret Recipe opens up a branch next to my house..
(yeah right then i'll get fat at an even faster rate..haha)

Been craving for a long time yet have no chance to stop by any cake shop lately.. >< Siokcheng's birthday cake was delicious too~

Me,rambling....

Easter break starts tomorrow.'Yay'.I lack the enthusiasm when it comes to any break,i reckon.
Anyone : Hey are ya going back?
Me : Nope.
Anyone: *looks at you longing for the same question to b asked*
Me : How about u?
Anyone : I am,cant wait. YAy~
Me : Under my breath * screw u.why did u even bother asking me...
Im an international student people, is it so fcuking hard to comprehend.I have been having major mood swings lately.Trying to control my fcuking volatile temper here,knowing tht i SHOULD cuz im in a foreign place,but little do i know,its not much of a difference between the place im from n the place here.But there are definitely things tht im not really in ease with,hmm,for instance EASTER BREAK.I miss home badly and small things irritate the shyte out of me.Yup,Pui Yee i just left in d middle of card game just now again.Reasons;unknown.
Its sometimes funny to analyse myself,when i DO TAKE TIME to spend some moments alone.
I've pissed alot of people here and i hardly bother.Im well known being the mean one here but at least im not the odd one out.Im never always in my best manner,never do i bother to cut off my habit of swearing.Im just me.
Been thinking and still,wonder why i chose to have a life tht require so much of obligations to heed.So many loads,so many pressures.I have always dream for a good life but this idealistic wonder is just left for me to ponder till now.Im far away from my family and no,i dont like to be called as a wuss,but i do miss my famly friends and my life back in Malaysia.People here just irritate me.Its not bad here just that , you know when you need some time to b alone or you need time to take a break to smell the roses or need some time just to b with someone you really want to be by their side...its just seems tht i lost all these aspects of my life.My life is as if stripped down to the very minimal of privacy.Neither i can rely on anyone for anythg here.Daniel always say its time to grow up but the fact tht there are some (maybe most) people grow up in many other ways but just not this way.
And now im alone in study room AGAIN feeling oh-so-guilty because i didnt study or revise anything today by which im supposed to.Sigh,when would i get rid of this inner voice of esteem.
Its seems tht i cant tolerate spending a little time for myself to chill.Yet i feel like im not catching up at all.
Its funny ive just got a text from my friend and how ive replied her.I sent her an abrupt rude short text saying its none of my dumbfcuk business when she asked me whether wanna tag along to go karaoke with them since its one of our friends, birthday.And even humours me to write all these shytes down.I admit i dont have the best traits to b fit n labelled as a good mate let alone a mutual friend.But im just me (again and again,lol) if i dont like things tht r not supposed to b in tht way (so as i thought) i just voice it out (or at least make it a lil more apparent).
Its just funny i still have friends.And i hope they understand my homesickness at times.

H0w muCh do U Know...

I haven’t been updating much for quite some time now, the main reason being I got kinda bored with this blogskin I think. Haha… so now I’m working on editing a new one. Hop in some day by next week and check out the new appearance!

Hmm...I don’t know if anyone out there is as interested as I do in doing psychological tests. I’ve tried quite many all these years, be it on magazines, newspapers or online. Just to see if there are any interesting characteristics or another personality that I have yet to realize on my own. And recently I came across this link in Facebook. If you think that even you don’t get why you’re behaving like that sometimes, or you have a vague idea of how do you look like in the eyes of others, here’s a good chance to learn more about yourself.
http://www.learnmyself.com/

It provides quite a brief and accurate (in my case) report, straight to the point. Choose the short one that takes lesser time if you’re not exactly a patient person, but the slightly longer one is more precise.

I’ll update more when I get my hands on pictures! Till then, tata~