FML

Before I start writing more on this post, allow me to emphasize that I have no whatsoever intentions to commit into any relationships at the moment. (neither to offend anyone)
To cut things short, Me and Lv met through a friend of a friend. Being told that she is (was?) interested in me, I was up for this challenge, to keep things platonic . To let things reside solely on friendship based relationship, I often hang out with her in a group of friends , or I will keep my distance from her (politely that is) ; ie I will let her pay for her own meals, no physical contact, no flirtatious texts, no nothing. =) We didnt even add each other on facebook and msn, yet (thankfully I didnt) At one point, I thought, wow we might potentially be great hang out buddies. So as it seems...
Two weeks ago, I was busy preparing for my microbiology paper and several lab reports...and to begin with my V***fone barred me from receiving texts
On the same week,
(August 16th 1000am)
Text : Hey, sorry about last night, my friends were abit cuckoo. Dont believe wat they've just told u.
(by which they told me she likes me and I should give it a go and advance to 'second base')
(August 16th 1230pm)
Text : Hi , how are you? Usually you will text me this time to tell me your lecture is boring.
( August 16th 5.30pm)
Text : Im bored., hehe wat ya up to?
(August 16th  7.30pm)
Text: Hello? You there?
(August 17th  2.16pm)
Text : Is everything alright?
(August 17th 8.05pm)
Text : Are you sure you dont wanna talk?
(August 18th 12.03am)
Text: ...the fcuk are you avoiding me for?
( I still remember that night that  Im trying real hard to memorize streptococall strains and brucella)
(August 18th 2.35am)
Text: ...fuck godammit
(August 18th 5.30am)
Text: Sorry, I dont mean to lose my temper. Was not in a good mood. Please forgive me. Im gonna have dinner with my friend tonight. Wanna join?
(Wondering if she gets any sleep at all for that night...)
(August 18th 2.05pm)
Text : I feel much better now. And I hate people ignoring me.
(August 18th 2.35pm)
Text:  did i do something wrong...
(August 18th 2.55pm)
Text: empty text
(August 18th 3.30pm)
Text: So Hi, wats up?
( blame v***fone T.T)
(August 18th 4.45pm)
Text : F*** you asshole. You think ya so f***king high and mighty. F*** you dont u dare ever text or talk to me again.
( I know right...wtf is wrong with her)
(August 18th 8.15pm)
Text: Call me, text please. i nid to talk to som1.urgent.
(August 18th 8.30pm)
Text: Fine, dont call and dont text me. At all. Just to let u know Im deeply hurt n sad . I felt something between us. And now I have seen a true side of yours. U tk ppl for granted. Im glad I didnt accept u.
( Note: the statement Im glad I didnt accept u...haha funny aye? Accept me as wut?)
(August 18th 10.30pm)
Text: U fcking mother fcker. We always HAD fun and I TRIED to be happy with u. Im ALWAYS THERE WHEN U NID ME!!!u fcukface.go fuc* urself.
( i still remembered i was chatting with carmen on fb that night  abt our plans to watch SALT)
(August 18th 10.45pm)
Text: Ok, dont call me dont text me dont even bother sying hi to my face whenver we meet next time. I just want an explanation why did u wanna throw our relationship out just like that? Honestly, I see somethg in you. BUT U VE JUST LOST IT. text me back in 5 minutes if u wan it back.
( August 18th 10.50pm)
Text: Ok maybe 10 mins
(August 18th 11.45pm)
Text: Last chance. 1 hour or Im gonna kick u at the crotch.
(ouch. its pretty funny that I have ACTUALLY met her less than 5 times ,to think abt it)
(August 19th 12.30am)
Text:  you knw wat forget it. im not wasting my time n energy on a dumbfuck person lyk u, u r useless piece of sht, worse than a lil girl who is not daring to step up n tell me abt ur true feeling. go fck urself in hell
(August 19th 2.30am)
Text : I dont mean wat ive just said.
(August 19th 6.30am)
Text : no sleep thanks.
(August 19th 8.00am)
Text: i tried asking  XXX abt ur whereabout...i dont even knw wat to say...u guys r gangin up on me. fuck u.
(August 19th 2.30 pm)
Text: I have moved on. piss off
(August 19th 3.30pm)
Text: you owe me a conversation u man slut

I bought a new cellphone recharge the very next day after my test and to my surprise, I have got this endless texts beeping.
A total of 55 texts in less than a week from a person whom I barely know.

As you can tell, Im no longer friends with her.  I texted her on that very day I was bombarded by her massive texts, telling her that she is creepy and should stop.
 Lessons learnt:

1. Looks can be deceiving. Good looks are NOT NECESSARILY an emblem of good entity/ personality. Hot chicks can be insanely psychosis.
2. Careful when you date/make friends with passionate people. They swing in both extremities. They either  love you to death or hate you to death
3. Persistent is NOT ALWAYS  a good trait.
4. V*dafone is my secret cupid...and saviour.
5. Abusive; is never a good sign to initiate any sort of relationship

=) OMFG (thts my lil update abt my current life)

I want my own emancipation too...

Girls = troubles

Friday~

I like the feel of wind in a cooling Friday evening, after class ends.

Unknowingly, this long sem is gradually getting nearer to an end, leading to none other than students’ most stressed period --- final exams.

Throughout this semester, we’ve endured a totally different level of stress. Even when there are no assignment deadlines chasing after us till we’re left breathless, there is this constant nagging at the back of our heads. Things may seem calm and peaceful, as if there’s plenty of time till finals. But we are all more than aware of the amount of topics we have yet to catch up, tutorials left uncompleted, things left undone, and revision not even begun…

With that said, I don’t want to make my life so miserable. I still try to (stubbornly) take things easier (more than I should).
When it comes to studies, I realize that health is much more precious.
You could resit an exam. You can’t wake up from dead.

But when it comes to books other than textbooks or dramas, there’s nothing as too late, not even when the clock strikes 2am.
Haha… I know. I so deserve the exhaustion sometimes.

But I think it’s partly the stress that makes me so attached to these in the first place. Take for example, you place a tv remote in my hands and put me in front of the tv after the finals end, and I’ll tell you there’s nothing interesting and just walk off like that.

Everything becomes much more interesting when you can’t (or not supposed to have) access to them. Humans. =P

But I never said I wanted things that are so unreasonable or unachievable.
In fact, what I want the most now is just some days where I get to be idle, relax without feeling the guilt for doing so. Kinda like what I would feel every Thursday night, minus the fact that weekend ends after Sunday.

Anyway, just am glad that once again, it’s Friday.
A week has passed. A week closer to finals.

My aim this weekend: Make the weekend productive
Py, you can do it, ‘cuz you’re great. =)

Pharm ball 2010

thanks Carmen. You've made my night.

plead

God............. please help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and Py too.

in charge

Edmund, when would you wake up and take control of your own life.

Note to self

It's week 11, time to wake up (such glaring color) you lazy bum.

Restart your engine!! Gather Your Momentum!!

vRoOm~~~



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