sense of apathy

Im severely bruised.

chins up!

Sometimes when the worst thing does happen to you, the least you can do is forcefully smile. Appreciate lil things around u. And I feel blessed having two most important Ds in my life. Yup, my double D breast. Lol. Na, was just jokin. Ya know who am I referring to.

end.

worse possible thing happened to me. its gone now.

feels so blargh.

Nothing turns out to be in my way recently. Just one of those days.As usual, being in this course, no doubt, bombarded by heaps of studies...

Have you ever got the feeling of being helplessly lazy, but cant be bothered to do anything about it? =) Yes , I have a workload of 2 weeks to be completed and yes, Im slacking. I hate this semester, in terms of the types of paper I have to sit. Make little or no relevance at all to my future career. And its Microbiology, parasitology and genetics.Nuff said.

So...yea...its near to 11pm, and Im stucked in central lib.Just finished group discussion for Monday's assignment. But yet to finish the ppt. And...I cant be bothered walking home from lib. 30 mins tau... ><

Hence, camwhoring comes to play. To kill time. And to be stupid.

Time flies and Time crawls by

at the same time, but in different context.

This morning, I heard the alarm clock alright but I decided to ignore it. Continue sleeping…
Then I got two calls at the same time, one from the optical shop (still sleepy) and another asking me to submit a resume for a vacant position (quite awake by now). I was surprised that nowadays the HR would actually shortlist candidates a year before their graduation date?? Turned out there was confusion about the dates. =.=

Had quite a fun day yesterday. Hehe.
The day didn’t start really well, since I’ve got minor headache and the bus didn’t turn up on time. But after that, it’s all smooth.

Surprised Lei yee alright, she even teared a little. =P Am glad that she loves the presents, else all my effort for past few days gone to waste >.<
Had a really fun karaoke session, despite my voice were kinda drowned among the rest…(though admittedly my voice was kinda weak haha)

We don’t really hang out much with college friends, ‘cause I feel that no matter how it’s difficult to build up a friendship as deep as those we share with high school friends, just by being in the same class over a mere 1 or 2 years. Perhaps that’s due to the fact that we don’t spend as much time together. But anyhow we got to know some of them closer than the rest, and it was really fun to hang out with them. =D

Relationship is a kind of investment. You don’t put yourself out there, then you are unlikely to get much in return. But it’s not like you can guarantee a return at least equal to what you’ve invested either. There’re always risks involved. Haha… finance terms.

Sometimes, I wish that I can be emotionally independent of other people. That way, there’ll be one less distraction and disruption to my life, especially when people walk away (be it temporary or permanent). However, life without having any sort of relationship with people is just meaningless, in my opinion. Humans are not meant to live in isolation anyway. (Don’t know bout you, but I would die of loneliness, having nobody to talk to at all >.<) It’s just that every person having varying degrees of self defense system. Some let others into their hearts easier, and some find it harder to do so.

But in either case, once the bond strengthens to a certain extent, we become vulnerable. Their actions affect your emotions.
In some cases, I think it’s like a sweet poison, only milder.
It can be sweet and addictive, but one that you can’t get yourself out without going through the withdrawal symptoms.

sNap !

Yes , this is how I feel currently.Well, in real life,of course my expression is less animated.

To be truthful,I sometimes despise my friends here.

Semester break is almost over, and friends are coming back to this town, one by one.Being with them reminds me once again,how superficial they are. Guess nothing will ever change no matter how hard I pray.

Anyway,today I got to spend some time alone (yay!), doing things that I like, enjoying solitude.

Anyway, I dyed my hair burgundy (though it seems otherwise in these pictures) and had a haircut.Most expensive haircut ever I had in my life. f*ck that.

Im hot.Shut up. XD

Ps:Im  soooooo lazy to update my post about my trips to Chch,welly n Auckland.One day...one day...i will finish it lol.My old laptop fucked up again T.T

WTF post

When Im this bored, I love to spend time talking to myself.  Termed me having disordered mental pattern or whatever, but my erratic behaviour has slowly grown fond with my nature.I thought as you grow older, you grow wiser.
 Im not quite right though; as for my case.
One morning I just felt like flying to Auckland, the very next hour I found myself printing off the itinerary without any planning.
Feeling annoyed, I found myself swiping my card for a Burberry scarf and shirt.
When plagued with deep boredom, I bought myself bubble tea at 11pm to feed my craving (yea Dnd still sells them at this time,surprising huh).And then dying my hair again at 3am.
I planned to shave one side of my head tommorow.But I dont like the idea of being the next Britney.
But most of time , I feel agitated but dont quite know the root of this anger.
I think Im sexually deprived.I need a warm pie.Would be a good help.

Me...Psychosis?