anticipation.shortlived.fun-sies.momentary.

Woke up this morning feeling so shitty,to be aware of first thing in the morning tht im supposed to be driven and continue with the vicious cycle of HSFY life,the flow stream of stress.I have been slacking of from three lectures for HUBS and god knows how many for CELS.Im so dead.I totally set things aside this week to study chem and chem191 paper just ended yesterday.SO excited to get it done with and move on with life.Contemplating the precious self acclaimed free quality time right after chem paper yesterday.Did mostly useless things yesterday , anythg but studying...a moment to be treasured.Wanted to go to the beach or chinese garden,but as always its cancelled. reasons? blame my friends. =)
Anyhow managed to cook...asian food yesterday for dinner.
Sigh,anyway back to my shitty day whining mode.Went to do some laundry chuck my armani jeans.Left to study for like 2 hours and went back to the laundry room to only find tht a house mate of mine took my clothes out (cuz he wanna use the w.machine) and told me my IPOD is in pocket.I was like...huh...and i stared at my mini green motivator.lifeless but shiny. ( XP ) He looked on...with his sympathethic expression,saying "Its not good,bro "... T.T (*clearly i know)
I was wondering how would i survive without my ipod last night...n the day before.How it does function as my sole entertainer,motivator,and my personal conformer.
And this is wat happened today.Is this karma? Or im just being tested to what extent a student can be depressed.
I got shitty marks for HUBS,i can foresee my disastrous CELS results,and i got an extremely dissapointing grade for phySics.So whats next?Give me a break,man.

Bitch

Funny how things can turn sour by just split seconds.
It was a fun relaxing night (supposingly for me) but when one my friends implied tht im stupid,i got the rudest shock ever.She retreated from asking me question and said i would not know it anyway under her breath.Clearly,i heard her.MCB.
Bitches like these should rot in hell.Obviously im offended.If u were to ask someone for help or a question dont act like u dont even bother knowing the answer from the person you've just asked.And if u look down on my capability in the first place,dont even question me in the first place.
Was drinking in James' room and got a lil tipsy...but hell not after how she acted.ANd now its almost 2am,& im studying,diriku rasa tercabar...Urgh...GOd when wOuLD u end my SufferriNgs~


wonder why dont they even have a single page tht tells you on how to torture ur brain...oh ya...the whole book is.silly me.on serious note,its fun to study HUBS,but not when ya cramming for exams...><

who speaks what?

Its funny to have this mentality.Funny to say, i hate being me but i just could nt help it.Flying to a western country,a region where it is inhabited by caucasians,having the happy thoughts tht i could break free from some yoke of typical Asian traits.Not a trait to be exactly proud of.
Kiasu-nism is indeed a uninversal syndrome.Among students.Among nerds.Among try hards.Among the anti-social.Among the 'asians'.Call them whatever u want.It still prevails and prevalent.
It 'thrives' through era,battling through revolution,the inner you still wanna compete.Be it in Kuala Lumpur or in Dunedin,wackos are still wackos.Wankers are still...erm wankers.People annoy, people brag , people being judgemental, there are just people being...shit hole people.Nvm,i dont make sense here.
I hate this environment,but seems like i can never avoid it.Its just part of my life, i just have to embrace it.I have been so depressed lately,it may sound ridiculous if i tell u why.But ya,i screwed up a question...in my lab exit test.A question= one mark.I,myself,never thought i can be this depressed because of losing one mark.Who should i blame ? People around me XD.
Now its half past eleven in the city of Dunedin,people are out partying n raving at The Hop,embracing the theme of fluorescent night.Whos left in the hall of my residence? The ones for med and dent.There are 8 ppl around me now,in the study room,7 are my friends.Studying.Their arse off, and me,annoyed,ranting abt kiasu-nism.Thinking how to dominate world super power without being kiasu.preferably not everyone but me.I hate the fact that people can overlook friendship just to get past year examination papers.I hate friends hiding things from each other.I hate hypocrisy.
I hate eating 2 bowls of maggi noodles.Yuck.
I should continue studying chemistry.Fcuk.Tata.

I think something's wrong with me

Just as the title says.
Even though i can foresee that most probably it'll do nothing but depress me further, the curiousity in me still took over and my right hand automatically navigated the mouse and clicked into it.

Sometimes, the less you know the better it is. If one's heart is not opened, it's really hard to change his/her perception isn't it?

Should I learn how to care more, or care less? haha...
Maybe it's like an experiment. If more doesn't work, then make it less. Hmm..

wHo's tht?

look wat new zealand has done to me...

to be continued

our times together

Hmm… another semester has come and gone. This one was especially fast, or so I felt. As what they say, time flies when you enjoy it. And this is probably the “honeymoon sem” they grant us before we are to face those “tough ACCA papers” in advance diploma. Nevertheless, enjoy while I still can. =D

To recap what had happened this sem, I would summarize it into two words – macam holiday lah. Ok that's three words. Haha… we have, for the first time in our two years together, gone for a class trip in Genting. Undeniably fun. That was my very first time on roller coasters. Closely followed by my second, third and forth. XD

I think my heart might have paused beating (not stopped, else I won’t be here blogging) for more than a few times during those thrill rides. It was kinda reckless I know, given my heart condition and all. But I made sure I don’t cross the lines I’ve drawn myself, else I’ll probably have a difficult time myself, let alone convincing others.

The weather was so great that I couldn't refrain myself from taking pictures every now and then. Cooling yet not raining, my fav climate. There was one point the entire lake was covered in mist. So beautiful. Beyond the pondok was the lake.

Camwhoring while waiting for the themepark to open. (Slightly too early lol) It opens at 10am.

Don’t worry kimyen lynyen, this private blog not known by many =P (They have this weird fear of showing their faces online.) Peek for more in facebook. wakaka.

Peter the bag seller stopped by to pose with Shea Ling. He was yelling:" sepuluh ringgit satu! sepuluh ringgit satu!" Lol.

Few days ago after our last lecture together as DAC 2B Group 16, we went for a steamboat dinner somewhere in Setapak. The name was something like” dian hua fan dian” (Telephone Restaurant). So my mind automatically generated an image of a cozy restaurant dimly lit by yellow lights, with round tables on which steamboat pots are installed, around which bunches of students huddled together for a hot steamboat with variety of soups. (Eg. Tomyam, cheese or chocholate, which both I have only heard but yet to try for myself) And of course, air-conditioned.

When Peter dropped us off at the car park, however, the first thing that came out of my mouth was, “Eh, here ar?”

Guess the name gave me higher hopes. Looking up at the name board was written “Talipon Restaurant”. *smacks head* It was that kind of hawker restaurant “dai pai tong”, only that this one fully belongs to a buffet-styled steamboat + bbq.

The food was not bad, seafood like prawns and crabs were quite fresh. Though, the steam was constantly blown in my direction by the wind (we sat outdoor), thus we were already sweating within barely half an hour. =.=

Question of the day: Why is it called Talipon Restoran? Not a single telephone was anywhere to be seen. Weird.

Group 16, although we haven't exactly form a close relationship with the entire class, it was nice to have known you guys. Everyone seems to have different sides once we know them better. =)

Here's our close bunch of friends. See you guys in adv diploma~

*pics credited to ky and yiyin*

B to the O-Ring

Yeapz,seems like im stranded in Carrington for the longest time,yet i dont quite hope my break is over,just yet,because because because,i've got Physi191 mid year exam...coming shortly after this break.Yup mid year exam...so much for the word 'mid year'.Its nowhere near to June.Urgh...guess its another event tht marks the HSFY students' calender,approaching to the end of our first semester...hopefully.Anyway,enough crapping for now.Picture or so called mise en scene time ~!

Introducin Joanna Lee,a famous korean celebrity XD

(i swear she'll kill me if she sees this,having 2nd thought of uploading her pic curi curi)



Harmony, Bonjo & Me immitating her signature pose. =)


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we love ya joanna !!!

happy easter day. ( dont b pissed if ya

somehow bump into this post == soweeeee)