Cravings~

How good if Secret Recipe opens up a branch next to my house..
(yeah right then i'll get fat at an even faster rate..haha)

Been craving for a long time yet have no chance to stop by any cake shop lately.. >< Siokcheng's birthday cake was delicious too~

Me,rambling....

Easter break starts tomorrow.'Yay'.I lack the enthusiasm when it comes to any break,i reckon.
Anyone : Hey are ya going back?
Me : Nope.
Anyone: *looks at you longing for the same question to b asked*
Me : How about u?
Anyone : I am,cant wait. YAy~
Me : Under my breath * screw u.why did u even bother asking me...
Im an international student people, is it so fcuking hard to comprehend.I have been having major mood swings lately.Trying to control my fcuking volatile temper here,knowing tht i SHOULD cuz im in a foreign place,but little do i know,its not much of a difference between the place im from n the place here.But there are definitely things tht im not really in ease with,hmm,for instance EASTER BREAK.I miss home badly and small things irritate the shyte out of me.Yup,Pui Yee i just left in d middle of card game just now again.Reasons;unknown.
Its sometimes funny to analyse myself,when i DO TAKE TIME to spend some moments alone.
I've pissed alot of people here and i hardly bother.Im well known being the mean one here but at least im not the odd one out.Im never always in my best manner,never do i bother to cut off my habit of swearing.Im just me.
Been thinking and still,wonder why i chose to have a life tht require so much of obligations to heed.So many loads,so many pressures.I have always dream for a good life but this idealistic wonder is just left for me to ponder till now.Im far away from my family and no,i dont like to be called as a wuss,but i do miss my famly friends and my life back in Malaysia.People here just irritate me.Its not bad here just that , you know when you need some time to b alone or you need time to take a break to smell the roses or need some time just to b with someone you really want to be by their side...its just seems tht i lost all these aspects of my life.My life is as if stripped down to the very minimal of privacy.Neither i can rely on anyone for anythg here.Daniel always say its time to grow up but the fact tht there are some (maybe most) people grow up in many other ways but just not this way.
And now im alone in study room AGAIN feeling oh-so-guilty because i didnt study or revise anything today by which im supposed to.Sigh,when would i get rid of this inner voice of esteem.
Its seems tht i cant tolerate spending a little time for myself to chill.Yet i feel like im not catching up at all.
Its funny ive just got a text from my friend and how ive replied her.I sent her an abrupt rude short text saying its none of my dumbfcuk business when she asked me whether wanna tag along to go karaoke with them since its one of our friends, birthday.And even humours me to write all these shytes down.I admit i dont have the best traits to b fit n labelled as a good mate let alone a mutual friend.But im just me (again and again,lol) if i dont like things tht r not supposed to b in tht way (so as i thought) i just voice it out (or at least make it a lil more apparent).
Its just funny i still have friends.And i hope they understand my homesickness at times.

H0w muCh do U Know...

I haven’t been updating much for quite some time now, the main reason being I got kinda bored with this blogskin I think. Haha… so now I’m working on editing a new one. Hop in some day by next week and check out the new appearance!

Hmm...I don’t know if anyone out there is as interested as I do in doing psychological tests. I’ve tried quite many all these years, be it on magazines, newspapers or online. Just to see if there are any interesting characteristics or another personality that I have yet to realize on my own. And recently I came across this link in Facebook. If you think that even you don’t get why you’re behaving like that sometimes, or you have a vague idea of how do you look like in the eyes of others, here’s a good chance to learn more about yourself.
http://www.learnmyself.com/

It provides quite a brief and accurate (in my case) report, straight to the point. Choose the short one that takes lesser time if you’re not exactly a patient person, but the slightly longer one is more precise.

I’ll update more when I get my hands on pictures! Till then, tata~

Life

I've been mistaken as Edward.I've been mistaken as a 16 year old guy.And i've been mistaken as a Korean guy.Yes,i've been here for the past four weeks,homesick,most definitely.
Its half past eleven now,and i got my hubs (anatomy and physiology) class tommorow morning at eight a.m.Residents here are studying their arse off aiming for medicine,so as to compete with the other 1500 fortunates one.The life i led and chose now somewhat seems ...so different.Surreal.
And now im in the middle of the study room,as the name of the room suggested,i should be studying at this time too,similar to those 'try-hards'.But i've found time to blog,cause im just too tired of all this fast-pacing,never ending,say no to halt of pathway of life.
Dunedin is definitely a town composed by university students.Every head turn u took,its always related to the campus.Fun? Ya but in many different ways.The town,is definitely small,no huge malls,no fancy diner places,churches,gardens are everywhere.Serenity? Hmm...not really.Lets face it,its a town mostly full of students,its their gateway of freedom when they step into the uni.Dodgy places do exists here,abundant of them.My last visit to the Mcdonald was more to a shock,full of drunkards,students flooding in,half conscious,dressed up to the worse.There were sleepy security guards standing at the doorway,firmly as if they were the bouncer of the fast food chain (can u imagine tht?)
'Are you Alice in the Wonderland?'A guy randomly asked a girl dressed up as Snow White.She,then,pulling her long face and said No.She did it in a funnily manner,judging the way she dressed up too,she must be drunk.They introduced
themselves in the middle of the queue.
Another couple was seen fighting with a bunch of girls...about their orders.The whole shop looks run down,with chairs n tables upside down.As crappy as it is,the cashier who took my order was in his best of manners.Haha...
Its been a stressful week,and i had seen tht coming but never going.SO much to blog about,so little time.Till then,doodles~

An LRT ride

For the second time in my life, I lost the LRT card.

And unlike my previous time, this time my recklessness cost me RM7.80! That’s worth four trips to Hang Tuah already. Not to mention I’ve already paid the full amount to return to my station. So now the battered thin piece of fading blue card is worth RM7.80 huh?

Perhaps they encounter this problem almost on a daily basis that now they have raised the price for people to learn their lesson. So I asked the staff if I happen to find the card later can I come back to refund my money next time?

She looked at me and gave me a firm NO. =.=”

*rummaged through my bag for one last time*

Fine. There, RM7.80, take it. Stupid card. Not that I ever find it afterwards anyway.

Went to Bukit Jalil Golf & Country Club today with a bunch of British council (BC) friends whom some I have not met for ages already… Shiuann is going through an operation soon so we take this as an opportunity for another gathering. I hope everything goes well for her. Photos will be uploaded after I got them from Jeremy and Clarissa.

PS: I think the RM7.80 might be my punishment for guiding a young decent guy into a train moving in the exact opposite direction of his intended destination. It wasn’t done on purpose. I was never really good in directions in the first place.
I hope he realized not more than a few stations away as he looked like he was in a rush. Hahaha….

The End of the Tough Sem...

When I finally got through and logged in, I scroll down. Slowly.

Then I saw it, my results. For a moment, I was elated. And also surprised, since I thought I could have done better for Financial Management. But that was all it lasted, a moment. Usually the joy can make my day. Now I can even suppress my desire to tell my parents about it, which is not usually the case for the past few years.

I have a feeling that they won’t feel much about it now, just like me.

I guess that’s what they mean by taking things for granted, especially when they have occurred more than once or twice. Either that or I have finally realized results are merely there to show how much you’ve worked for it. When the process has ended, the results pale in comparison. Perhaps that is why we are so much more relieved when the process has ended than we are happy or sad when the results are out. This is particularly true when we are talking about academic results, which do not guarantee success in other aspects of life.

It is time to improve myself. =)

bad day

im sad im tired im pissed.
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