A-level results...

"Oh lord...".I woke up at 8.13 am yesterday,an hour and thirteen minutes later than i've expected.Yup,my results are out on 7am.I dragged myself from my bed,went to the website and key in my password and username.My nose begun to bleed,with my half-opened eyes,staring at my radiating lappie's screen.I reached out to my tissue box on the floor and then called up Ching Ying,a close college friend of mine.
Me :Hello...?

Ching Y:Hello,yea.
Me:U woke up oredi ar...

Ching Y: Yea.Apparently ya not.

Me: U've checked urs?

Ching Y: Nope,i've been sitting in front of my pc from 7 a.M.

I promised to help her get done with her procedures.Printing out her results,photocopy them and get them certified as soon as possible.I,nonchalantly,pressed enter.And i saw a row of As.And i couldnt help but to care less to read more,I went back to sleep.

I was startled with the text tone of my cell phone.Its 11 a.m,there goes my beauty sleep."Congratulation.U made it with flying colors". Wow,mum thanks,ahaks how formal.Somehow i managed to tell her how i ace my examination early in the morning in the state of semi-cousciousness.Yay~Daniel did ask...So did Denise.And thats it.
Im just grateful.Thank God.
I went back to college later in the evening.Mr.Low pulled out his hand and gave me a hand shake.Im like 'Alaaah,please ler'.Surprise surprise,he asked me about Justin again.Hahaha...
Justin has the audacity,to look forward to get his results,always been.Breakdown of the results excite him more.That fella,typical...(Haha...)

p/s: fcuk ler...i missed The Hills,bloggin this post.Fcuk...Urgh.

indelible conversation?

no,im not weeping.im just bored.

EdMuNd : Hey there,can i speak to my baby,please ?
Dxxxxe : Huh,...spo...tty ?
EdMuNd : ...ello,can i speak to my BABY...pleaseeeeeeeeeeee...
Xenisx : Oh,hahaha i thought you said spotty...So how's your...

(Such a turn off)

Its just hours away to the release of my results.Yup,my A-levels examination.Finished at November '08 and here...i am in front of my pc,a few (maybe a thousand) clicks away from accessing University of Cambridge website.Results that are pivotal in reinforcing my academic strengths.

To date,its the torque of my moment.Nervous,checked.Worried,checked.Sleepless,SURE HOPE NOT.

My aunt called me up this evening.She was my closest aunt,frequent visits to my home (i mean like almost everyday,at least once a week wiv uncle) to see her bro (my dad) for yumcha...It was rather weird that she called me from her office to well,erm chat.Yea,though i classified her as my closest aunt,it was well understood among my other family members,may it be from my mum's side or my dad's,that i dont talk much.Neither do i pretend to.A total opposite of my sis,the loud & talkative one,the happy go lucky one.So yea,its rather weird she talked to me through phone about me going to New Zealand.Asking about my preparation and how did i get to know about that university.I realised it's such a big deal of me going overseas after i hung up.This,however,i can't deny the fact that im really pretending that it could be dismissed as a marginal issue.For the past two months,i have been weaving a cocoon around myself,somehow console myself to settle in denial,pull over the wool over my eyes to conceal the fact that i will no longer be in my comfort zone.But to a rather foreign place,a place where people generally think its an unusual option to study.A place where the population of Asians is lesser than 2% in relative to the total proximity.

Clubbing,hanging out,dating,movies,dose of sexs =D,shopping,and spending ridiculous time at home doing almost nothing, just constitute to the facade i wish to have in reality.The illusion of time will wait,or at least University of Otago will wait.

Hmmm,perhaps im more worried of flying off from my comfort zone rather than my examination results.Accomodation there in NZ is still unconfirm yet,great (faiii diiittt lah,tiu).Sigh.All in all,wish me luck.For tommorow (my results) and for my future ( my results and my life in NZ to-be).God bless.

Pictures...

i look mighty fat in this pic,but hey, we like it.It was taken on early 2008.


Daniel's.


BOoked a RoOm foR neW yeaR eve.


Countdown to '09.

A good room number for a good year. 2009 =)

Daniel,"Pasta, anyone? "

Hear me

There are things ppl shud know (if they wanna date me) about me.I dont like awkward situation;like who does? A little dose would do,but if u throw me in a group of strangers expect me to hav dinner with them,that totally ticks me off.

Well,today is those kinda days where history recounts.A friend,asked me out for a dinner,and shockingly i saw a table full of ...unknown people.I see why people considered me the introvert one,or the rude one.I was so turned off,i dont bother to even answer their questions when they r trying to make some conversation.Let me clarify something; THE KICKSTART of OUR conversation was something abt lubricant.Ahem* wth?


I dont see myself as a polite person,but ...some things do denote classes between people.Some are classy n some,sadly,are not =).And i totally do my thinggggg,texting Denise that is,for the whole full hour.And the person who supposed to be on 'date' with me..,just doesnt talk.Yada yada yada more with their frens.I mean,FCUK U LA WEI.

Conclusion,i shud have known much better,at least do a background check on them.

Anyway things were cool when i left to meet Veena and Sheryl.Sheryl is flying off back to Perth tmr.=)

shut ur hole

someone : thanks but no thanks.

someone's someone : its over now.

*someone appears offline*

People today are hardly contented with their lives.Sadly,im one of them.People who accept the graceful way of life unfold before them,take a step back in their frantic pace of lives,to smell the roses,to halt and to breathe in.A few months ago,i have witnessed how stupid one of my close buddy cling to his relationship.Plagued with deep unhappiness,he was,still holding to it,for the sake of not being single.Pathetic,yes.Annoyance,yes.How he complaint to me was nothing less than futile.Every advice given to him was mere words of filling the frequency gap of the air.(So pathethic to see him,even more irritating when he tries to brag at the time of his break up)

So many people are unhappy.They jump from one relationship to another,seeking for temporary love and gratification,pseudo-appreciation,not for a second contemplating their quality of their lives.Their hearts are broken over and over again.People are rushing from one place to another,one activity to another,just because they can't tolerate spending more time with themselves.They find solitude as a threat instead of an opportunity to grow.

They fail to measure their own worth without judging the man standing beside them.

Love is arbitrary.When problems arise,you try to solve it.You dont try to dictate neither give in.This wasnt the case for me;as in...yea,im having problems too.

Its a social disorder,epidemic,endemic and pandemic one.Curable that is,but terminal as well.

We love to define ourselves in terms of where we are going instead of where we are from.A behavioural defect or an upgrade of the society? As for now,i wish to enjoy my life the fullest.And i know my heart will always have a space for Denise.Never on vacant. =)

sweet dreamz

I stretched to hit the snooze button on the alarm clock and grabbed my handphone to check the time. (i know its weird but i prefer my phone ova alarm clock) 9:35am...5 minutes past the time I set. While lazy-ing round in my bed, I can still recall faintly what was i dreaming...

a woman in santa clothing stuffed a box of chocolate to me saying something like: "These chocolates are meant for u. Don't give it to others." (cuz apparently she gave me some previously and i shared it with others)

Weird dream. Anyway...that's how i woke up this morning. After I got up n went downstairs for breakfast, and guess what?





I found this in the usually almost-empty refrigerator...

Godiva chocolatE~~

Looking all beautiful n yummy~

I have this policy of not eating chocolate since many months ago since I don intend to worsen the condition of my skin and not to mention how suffering it is when u get sick during final exam.
But for this deliCious (and vr expensive) chocolate, I'll break that policy jz for once. ^^

That dream of mine this morning... "these chocolates are meant for u," said santarina.
I think it's there to warn me from sharing them. Haha..

And the best thing is, I can taste the melting happiness without chewing.
Lately, chewing = pain. ><

I wanna eAt ><

Among all the other times of the year, u have to choose now to break urself out of your comfortable and soft confines and bring forth pain and suffer to poor me. I've already surrendered to the fact that I cannot enjoy cny this year due to the final exam and other factors. At least let me eat all i want la. Stupid wisdom tooth.