I'd Do Anything

but study. Seriously.

I totally understand the idea of bumming and how scary it could be when you don't feel the fear and worry you should be feeling.

Btw I love reading blogs with thought provoking posts. They're addictive. I just can't stop clicking to read other posts. Not something good when you have exams like, in less than a week's time.

Lesson for the day:
Never, and I mean never, to trust my self discipline and switch on the laptop early morning. No matter for what excuse.

Hmm...Maybe I should list them down in here next time, so you guys can get addicted too. Then we'll all be in the same boat. Hahaha...

Just kidding. Good stuffs are meant to be shared. =)

Luxur...ies?

I took a few days off and still counting...
Allow me to shed the light on what i have done for these past few days.

Dine out in somewhere fancy...?

Listening to him~

Shopping...

Admiring Spring...

Swim Heaps !

The gayest thing i did in my life.Went for a Shise!do facial right after social medicine lecture. Was doubting it...cuz...im a guy...almost cancelled my appointment. But hey i've made it.Seriously,its kinda relaxing.

peace out

Time out

Love the cherry blossoms, dont ya?

I have been seriously bumming for the whole week, its so scary, u'll have no idea...

Im so screwed for this semester.

Ice Creams

Do you have an unspoken bond with ice creams?

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help me.
God please.what do u want?
im really tired.i swear on my life.i am.


should i just end it?

thr's a chapel in my soul

Social medicine and epidemiology lecture just ended. I found myself dumbstruck revising the notes that i find a little affinity with.Something about the headings " Severe hardships " keep me riveting.Down those bullet points, i saw the description of life shocks, given an elaboration of conditions justifying the state of bankruptcy and marriage break ups. And then i suddenly thought...what about me?
My challenge to the group was met with averted eyes. Despite an appreciation of our cultural diversity,i have learned a great depth of discomfort . I did not plead them neither asking for a favour to see me in all sorts of complexity. And all i can thought of is just how to drift past 2009.Its mentally challenging and physically straining. I learnt that friends are just labels you termed people as. Unspoken truth, lies and bitching are all part of this facade.
Im too numb to handle the 'friendship prognosis'. I cant be bothered to tolerate or to be tolerated. I despise people here, how fake and bitchy they could be. And since when entitlement is something you should gain when you wanna lose your temper? Is this the life i opt for? Why am i so unprepared for all these shytes? Friends accused me of being indifferent and bad tempered. Why wouldnt they think about the reasons to it? And again, its part of their fake empathethic dialogue again, its part of their game.
I have tried to forgive her, but she makes it inaccessible.Little did she realise tht it is irreversible now.The things she did is in line with the prevention paradox hypothesis.She said one thing but did another."She's just being a bitch again".I was too naive , even for my own age , that things will be for the better, and perhaps it did, but on a long run.I have been told that in near future, my light will be bleak.I've been told that i did so little that i will be ridiculed if im spiralling into depression.And he has been told that how she wished he is as obedient as the dog fetching a twig back to his owner. She made herself clear that it is a misfortune to flat with her.She particularly confronted me that she hate things being said behind her back. And then,she did all of those ...Doing things behind our back,not that i care, it just brings me back on the pondering zone of how fake a person can be.Looking at their pictures in facebook, no one could have ever doubt such young 'angelic' faces would turn so ugly inside out. And there was a few other ones.All i could sense from them is the smell of bitchiness.They segregate and then isolate you.Like random toys u pick up,played on your own pace and pleasure and then threw them aside.I could talk to noone here,the image of me being humiliated or betrayed always pop out in advance,i can always see a coherent image of me being hurt.Like what they did to her.And how i was influenced to do so as well. And i regretted signing the contract.The contract that bound us to stay together for the whole 12 months of 2010.Again, fcuk u all.

picking up the pieces...

Ive been spinning round and round.
Waiting for something profound to happen.
It hadnt occured to me that semester break is just 5 sleeps away.

What do i care? Why does it bother me? My 'friends' are heading back to their home for the wee break,for better or for worse. Ive been thinking alot.I stood in front of my computer,click the "View my grades" tab,and there it is. My latest HUBS results...Worst among my previous scores.Sad? No,i just nonchalantly close my Uni window, and resumed.Life moves on. So as i hope...