greatest fear

im very scared of my future.very.
and its soon.sooner than ive thought.
for now,i tried not to think about it.
but i cant help but just be apprehensive abt it.

lalala

Pui Yee = stupid

The Back Attack

Being back is not as particularly fun as expected.I've got so many pimples since Ive arrived here.Piss the shyte out of me.Amazing what KL can do to u only for just a few days.Plus,the heat is killing me.
And I've got this sucky rm48 haircut.

Moreover,My laptop is fcking playing tricks on me.Cant download any games, cant login to MsN as usual,sometimes going on9 is a big ass challenge to me...
LOL sucks to be me right now. PYee aint in a good mood these few days oso.Can imagine her being surrounded by those yellow hazardous tape.
PS: damn frus.mcb.go away la pimples.......

final day with buds in Dunedin

counting...

a few more hours to home.
ps : im heart broken to find out something.good thing im leaving otago for now.XD

Emo

Its half past four in the morning now. I woke up today without having any reasons to be awaken.No studying, no reviewing lab reports,no nothing.And then I slowly realise that my room is no longer like my room anymore.Its so foreign,much resemblance to the very first glance of my room the first day i came to Carrington.

Its sad arriving here first day, and definitely sad to leave here on the last.How time has passed,before you know it, everything is gone.To me, its just crudely mould.In a cruel manner.Everything.

All my close friends left, and Carrington, or specifically Stuart house has lost its definition.Its such weird feeling that I cant randomly knock on their door,talk randomly,do study groups, laughed about ridiculous stuffs,do things together.

I miss being annoyed.I miss listening to lame jokes,kiddy talks, and nerdy science-y talks...Haha.

Im just being emo at 4am.

memories

Before your very eyes, you feel like the surroundings start to engulf you, the inner feeling of yours start to swell, and then you begin to dwell into a world of surrealism. Much like the feeling of being phagocytosed, I assumed. One minute, we were all studying so hard, we skipped all meals, laundry times and all possible shower times. Yup, that’s how intense Health Science was. But the very next thing you realise is that finals are finally over, over and done with. With just 3 papers only in this semester, I have no idea why is it still bloody suffocating to handle all these subjects. And yesterday was our last time spending quality time together. Its kinda sad as we could only spend a few ‘true’ hours together, never for once relating our lives to our future career, or say, define our conversation on the basis of our average GPA. Its even more sad for me to think about how things have changed, our friends are all diverging, friendships are no longer as solid as we first met.
Everyone went to their own separate ways, do their own things, creating drama and bitching. And it was a brief night, a night where we sorta have dinner together and then went to do separate things somehow but reunite and do separated things again.Weird aye. And we still are awake till 4am.This morning I have sent them all off. One by one. Sadly, my friend cried. I was real sad too. And I realised most of us feels the same way. We have gone through so many stupid stressful events. She hugged me.
And now, sitting at the same spot, along the very same corridor, where I was a week ago doing my revision for Human anatomy and physiology, but now with a complete turn of event. This floor is so empty, and I cant hardly imagine how solitude a person can be in after such a long time. I was so excited to get back to KL but now its dampened. The fact that my family and friends are back home do make me feel really happy, but the another fact that the place Ive been brought up is pretty fcuked up do turns me off.
Omg...i dunno what am i rambling about...
Its just so weird.Everyone is gone now.SO weird. Everything just happen in a very compressed time frame.Similar to our demographic and epidemiologic transition in an accelerating mode,in the settings of urbanization.SO weird.ANd i miss them.Ironically.I miss hating them too.